I'm so frustrated! I just spent nearly 2 hours running 2 errands and realizing how out of place I feel outside of New York.
Drove to the bank. As I approached it, I saw the drive-through thingy and realized that I have no idea how that works. So I parked and went inside. I've done all my banking at ATMs for so long (since the bank lines in NYC are so insane), that I don't know how to interact with a teller. So, even though I was the only customer in the branch, I made a deposit at their ATM.
Then, backing out of my parking space, I gently bumped the parked car next to me - not hard enough to leave a mark, but just enough to make me feel like a complete idiot. Three guys in suits standing in the lot chuckled at me and shook their heads.
Made my way to the grocery store. The place is huge. Now, when I was in NYC picturing my life outside of it, I visualized visits to the grocery store as fun and relaxing - there would be so much space, so much variety! But after half an hour in this place I was exhausted. I couldn't find anything I wanted (hummus and sorbet were epic hunts with little reward, and I never did find sandwich bags), but was surrounded by crap I really didn't want - why is there a whole aisle of stuffed animals and greeting cards in a grocery store?!
I know none of this is tragic. But everything about getting around here feels foreign to me, I can't get into the rhythm. I miss the efficiency of NYC, the way I just had my bag and everything I needed was in it. All I needed to travel was my Metrocard - no car to lock up each time I get out, no parking to find.
And being an out-of-practice driver really sucks. I drove for 1 year in high school, and rarely ever since, and that was 13 years ago. I expected driving again to feel self-sufficient, liberating - but so far it feels like a burden and an embarrassment.
Overall, I feel like I'm 16 years old again, learning how to do all these "adult" things that weren't part of New York life. When, if ever, will this stuff feel natural?